Ja Ho

I'm not saying it was unexpected.
But still, HELLO.
This is exciting.

I love how I'm an unintentional flirt.
It's all like a reflex to me now.
I can sit on a bus, look at a guy, and suddenly he comes over.
So what if it's a habit that I lick my lips and flick my hair.
Bite my bottom lip and look at my feet.
Swing my hip this way and twist a lock of hair around my little finger.
I do it cuz it's fun.
I don't mean to.
To be honest, I do find it ammusing that I can't seem to stop.
And that it does actually get me the ones that I want.

"If I want you, I'll get you."

Yeah, it works about 110% of the time.
My only problem right now, would be KEEPING the ones that I get.

Maybe it's due to my lack of shame.
Or conscience.
Or that it does actually take a lot to embarass me.
But flirting is what I do.
It's the same with my fashion sense.
Seems like these days the only look I can ever actually pull off is the slutty one.
In the words of Kristy.
"I think I'd be more confused if you DIDN'T dress like a slut."

What can I say?
......nothing actually.
Witty remarks aren't my fortè at night.
So's ya face!

The world these days.
You see little girls dressed like me so often now it's no longer strange.
I mean, yeah, they're not old enough to comprehend the meaning of body image.
To them, well, they're just trying to look like Hannah Montana.
But they're setting themselves up for years of issues.
Seriously, you'd think parents just didn't care anymore.

But still, these kids are younger than my niece.
You gotta stop this while they're young.
I was going to refer to how 'you can't teach an old dog new tricks'
But that's a little derogatory.

I guess, it's more an insecurity than anything.
Like how you'll dress up to emphasize a certain physical feature about you that you love.
But if there isn't anything about your body that you love, how do you plan on ever feeling good?
What do you emphasize? Your courage, confidence, personality? Please.
You hate your body, that's pretty much where it ends.
No confidence, you change your personality constantly to try draw attention away from who you really are.
And thus, you have the people who dress like me.
Hide the fact that you have no confidence and hate your personality.
Hide the fact that you hate your body.
As long as people think you're alright, you will be, right?