IT'S NOT FAIR

How am I 'sposed to answer that???

It isn't fair!

If that question just so happened to be asked.
Then yes, I would be screaming with joy on the inside.
Every part of me would be begging to say 'yes'.

But no.
I couldn't.

And that's not fair.

Because I'm so wrapped up in doing what's right for everyone, all of the time.
I never do what's right for me now, do I?
Though I would probably cry for weeks afterwards, knowing that I shouldn't let the Angel on my shoulder win.
Give in to the devil.
Though things will be bad for a while.
It's what's right.

Then how come you got upset?
How come that answer made you stop talking.
Made you 'go to bed' way too early.
How come my 'right' answer is wrong for us?
And how come the 'wrong' one is right?

How come I'm not thinking in terms of what I want, or what you want.
But what they want.
I'm not friends with any of them.
I shouldn't feel bad for this, should I?

Fuck it.
Fuck them.


Yes.