Tuesday, September 8, 2009

Just to get it out there.

That was horrible.
That was disgusting.
That was.....beyond the kind of person I thought you were.

I don't care what you say. It doesn't matter who that really was directed at, whether I know them or not.
I don't care.
You don't say that. Ever.

You don't post something like that ON THE INTERNET about ANYONE, no matter what they may have done to piss you off.
THAT is the kind of thing that can send someone so far down inside themselves, that there might not be a way back.

You don't understand, do you? Just how much your words can affect someone.
Whether it's calling them fat, or just plain bitching about them. When it's written, things seem so much worse, things seem so much more real. People get so much more hurt.
How can you purposefully do that to someone, honestly?
I thought you were different.


It doesn't matter what they might have done that pissed you off so bad.
No one deserves to read something about them in such a way. No one deserves to find out that you hate them because they read it on the internet.
No one.

Yes, when I read it, I thought it was about someone else.
Someone close to me, someone I love.
Someone who means the world to me, and someone who you hurt.
I know, the probability that it is actually written about her is very low.
But does that make right?
Yes, I would be relieved beyond belief if it really wasn't.

But do you think that everything would be fine again after you wrote that?
Could I look at you the same way?


You wrote some horrible things.
Read it over again, and imagine that I wrote that, imagine I wrote it about you.
Don't you just want to cry?
Don't you want to know why I hate you?
Don't you want to know why I haven't actually stated what it is that you've done wrong, but for some reason, I can't stand you anymore?
So why is that again, you think you have the right to say these things?

You think so much of yourself, and you don't realise.
You say these things about others, but do you know that you are only describing yourself?

No, you don't realise.

I don't understand.
I dont' see how you can even believe that you have the right to say these things.
You judge people, you bitch about them. You post disgusting things about them over the internet.
And you still think you are in the right with all of this?
How do you plan to make it better this time?
You have no case. It's wrong, you know it. Fix it.

Read it. Read it again. Think about it.
How do you feel?
I don't know how you can change this.
You can't delete it, ignore it, pretend it never happened.
It's been said.
And now everyone knows just how bad you lash out, and how we should probably all stay on your good side.
We don't want something like that written about us.
On the internet.
In a blog.
But now at least we're aware of how you can get.
Thanks for letting us know.

I'm sorry.
I'm sorry I ever respected you, I looked up to you, I admired your acceptance of people.
I'm sorry I ever let myself believe that mask that you wear.
Because now I've seen the real you.
And I don't like her.

I don't know what to think anymore.
The person I loved, the person I was friends with. She isn't here anymore.
That wasn't her. That was someone else. Someone I would never even associate with.
How can these two people be one in the same?
How can I keep my love for you, now that I know you represent everything I hate about a person?
The judgements, and disrespect, the overall disregard for another person's feelings.
I don't think I can accept it.


I've said it before, and I will say it agian.
People like YOU are the reason that there are so many miserable people in the world.

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